I am writing to you to let you know how much I love you. You probably didn't know that because I haven't let you know. I have only thought of you in a really bad way with all of my shame, guilt and unforgiveness when I remember the time I cut our time short.
I was really excited when I found out I was pregnant with you. I started writing out baby names and I felt in my heart that you were a girl and that is why I named you Isabella. It just seemed to fit.
I wanted to tell you that you have an older brother and sister and a younger brother. Your big sister has always wanted a sister and asks for one all the time. I will tell her about you one day, but she is just too young to understand right now.
I know you are in heaven with Jesus and He is holding you in his arms loving you. But one day I will be there to hold you like I never gave myself the chance to do here. I will wrap my arms around you and never want to let you go.
I picture you with brown hair and brown eyes like me with a beautiful smile that can light up heaven. All these years I have thought about you but never knew how you would feel about me. I know what I did was wrong and I hurt you and me. I hope you can forgive me some day.
I love you so much and will miss you until the day we are together.
Hugs and kisses, mamma.
