How do I begin to plead for your forgiveness? On bended knee at the foot of the cross is my only hope. Grace, I did not protect you when you needed me the most. You were so quiet. You felt safe and didn’t even say a word for some time but mommy knew you were there. When you were a little older and could hear my voice, you would let me know by your playful movements in that once secure and sacred place — your mother’s womb. You trusted me to protect you and I abandoned you when you needed me the most.
Do you remember me telling you how much I loved you? Could you feel my tears of pain that I would soon abandon my precious daughter? I have never stopped loving you. You are mommy’s little girl—mommy’s precious little girl. How I yearn to hold you, to feel you, to tuck you into bed and kiss you goodnight. I miss you and I love you. Does a mother forget her child – I have never forgotten you. I know you feel my love and how much I want you to be here with me.
I miss you and I love you, hugs and kisses. Mom.
Dearest Sweet baby Gracie
Our sweet little angel. As I write this to you tonight, the most powerful thing I can ask is for you to grant me forgiveness for a terrible decision made during a very tumultuous time in my life.
As terrible as it was, my poor decision-making at that time cost you your life.
As you know, I do pray to God to ask Him to keep you close to Him and I look forward to meeting you and being with you one day in heaven. Maybe then we can share time and love with each other in the shadow of God’s powerful love and forgiveness.
Until we meet, I remain and will always be
….. your loving father.